2021.10.27 14:51 alonsojett The evolution of sand in cinema
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2021.10.27 14:51 Nicknsfw18 PIC
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2021.10.27 14:51 Soft-Baker-7277 Lost AirPod Pros in front of CKB
2021.10.27 14:51 gooddragon1994 Cute animals will make you go aww
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2021.10.27 14:51 Longrod11 Why do I love a girl that more times than not has treated me like absolute shit?
This week has been hell and it really fucking sucks. To start things off my best friend was in a near fatal car accident on Saturday night. He’s in shock trauma and while it is slowly getting better each and every day, he has massive brain swelling and bleeding so really anything can happen in the next couple of days.
Fast forward to Monday and my girlfriend broke up with me. A little history is that her and I were both each other’s first long term relationship. In fact, shewas my first girlfriend period. She had dated a guy a while back but only for roughly 2 months before he cheated on her. Her and I had dated for 2.5 years and experienced so much together. She was my first kiss, my first date, my first true love, and we lost our virginities together. I was 24 at the time that we started dating. It was really hard for me to connect with people in general. I’m socially awkward, super anxious, and I don’t have the highest self esteem. She approached me first, however, and we immediately clicked. I was hesitant to get into a relationship because I genuinely wanted to wait for the right girl. I wanted to be “one-and-done” and marry the first girl I fell in love with. I know that’s a near impossible standard to live by these days but it’s what I wanted. I never felt comfortable dating around, hooking up, having flings, etc. I don’t knock anyone who enjoys that lifestyle. It’s just not for me.
Her and I talked for a couple of months before making it official because I genuinely believed thag I would marry her one day. I loved her so much. I still love her even though she broke my heart. It wasn’t always easy. The reason the title of this post is what it is is because she really treated me like shit for most of the relationship. She was controlling to the point where I had to block out any other females that I was even slightly aquatinted with. She wanted my focus on her 24/7. She was slightly abusive with her fists and throwing things at me and loved to yell and berate and degrade me in front of people. Despite all of this my love never waned for her. Early on, when she was showing these qualities, we decided to take a step back and stop loving so fast. We mutually called off dating and it absolutely broke both of us. I couldn’t stand seeing her so miserable and alone so we literally hung out together every single day until we were dating again. As someone who loves pretty much every other person more than himself I just couldn’t in good conscience let her be sad and alone. Things were genuinely perfect for such a long time after that. Yes we would have the occasional fight or not-so-good day but what healthy couples don’t?
Well, recently things had gotten…complacent, I guess. I have always encouraged her to hang out with her friends more often than she did. She alienated everyone in her life when we started dating and I was trying to show her how negative that is. Even if she didn’t want me to have any close friends, I wanted her to have friends because friendship is important. She started hanging out with some girls at her work and that led to them hanging out with other guys at their work too. The last 5 days of our relationship went like this: She went mini golfing with a group of her coworkers, none of which were her core best friends (who we will call Daisy & Jenna). Now, she went out with mostly other people that I had heard of or briefly met from time to time but come to find out I didn’t know everyone. In enters Carl (his name isn’t actually Carl, and I’m sorry to any Carl that this might offend but fuck that name and this guy who I’m calling Carl). I didn’t think anything of it at the time because she was absolutely allowed to have guys and girls as friends and has never given me any reason to believe she would cheat on me. Well the next day she said she was going to the movies with a girl friend of hers. When she got back I was taking to her about it and she told me how it was a couple of people from work again, Carl being one of them. The day after that she went to a haunted house with Carl and some of his friends from his old work. I was getting suspicious then but my trust was too blind. The day after that she went with me and my family to a haunted house. That night my friend got into the accident, but we didn’t find out until the next day. That day was rough for me because I wasn’t sure if my friend was going to pass or not. She asked me if she could go with Carl to the haunted house we just went to. She admitted to me that she had the “tiniest little crush” on him (her words) and I appreciated the honesty. I don’t think it’s that crazy for people to have tiny crushes on people while they’re in a committed relationship. We’re all human after all and he was giving her a lot of attention, which would make anyone feel good. I told her she could go because I trusted her. I wanted her to make the right decision to stay with me in my time if need all on her own. If I had told her no that I wanted to her to stay and that I’m having a shitty day, I’m really only blocking her from making the right decision on her own; which was the most important thing to me. She decided to go anyways, swears on her life nothing happened between them but then broke up with me the next day saying: “I don’t want to break up but I think we need to” “we can get back together in a little while” “I’m too mean to you” “I treat you like shit” “I hate myself so much and it’s not healthy” while absolutely bawling her eyes out. I told her fine if that’s what you really want take a couple of hours to think about it and come back in a little bit and we’ll talk. A few hours went by and she came back a brand new person. She was smiling and all giddy and happy, but would not look at me. I’m sitting there sobbing as she’s packing her stuff and she won’t even talk to me. That’s the last time I saw her or heard from her. She completely deleted herself from my life and it fucking sucks. That’s what hurts the most to me. No closure. Just complete alienation like the past two and half years didn’t mean a damn thing.
Admittedly, she has lived a very rough life and is unfortunately a product of her upbringing. Every parental figure she’s ever had has walked out on her. I promised not to do that. I wanted to give her the happy life that she deserved because I loved her with all my heart. She was always so worried that I would one day either cheat on her or just walk away without saying a word. I would never do either of those things but she turns around and does exactly that to me. It fucking hurts. I deserve more than just an open-ended break-up without any definitive closure. We promised each other we would never do this and yet she did.
What also sucks is with her being my first true love, I know I would take her back in an instant. I know what she’s doing. She’s going off with this fucking Carl guy seeing where it leads because she knows my dumb ass will be sitting here waiting for her to come back. I don’t know why I’m like this but it really sucks that I am because I have never felt pain like this before. I’ve been crying non-stop, I haven’t eaten anything in three days, I can’t even go into my room without getting all depressed so I’ve just been sleeping on the couch. Heartbreak is the fucking worst.
For anyone who actually took the time to read this rant, I genuinely from the bottom of my aching heart thank you so so much. It means so much more to me than you’ll ever know. Just being a me to rant and write my thoughts and feelings down has done a lot for the healing process for me. Thank you, friends!
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2021.10.27 14:51 loksfox Can anchor use the UST in earn to pay the borrowed money if my ltv goes above 60%?
If i borrow 25k from anchor protocol and throw it all in Earn couldn't anchor liquidate that money instead if my LTV goes over 60%? Honest question, i don't know if anc already does that and uses the rest of collateral if it's not enough.
I just think it makes a lot of sense and it would make borrowing very safe for the people that are putting all the borrowed money into earn
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2021.10.27 14:51 TheWanderBoi On an emoji scale 1 - 10 (⚡️ being the highest): How likely is it that Giddey is a top 10 player in the league at some point in his career?
2021.10.27 14:51 pursuingmaterialism Best method to buy btc given my situation?
What's the best/cheapest way to purchase? Considering either purchasing via coinbase or ledger as those are most convenient. Saw ledger has a 1.5% fee, i was not able to find what coinbase's fee amount is.
Additionally, will likely liquidate this position over the next year for a mining coinvest opportunity so also want to make sure it's easy enough to transfer and exit fees aren't obscene. Any help would be appreciated!
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2021.10.27 14:51 donttalkHOMIE Seriously, I can't find a normal prequel meme anywhere on here.
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2021.10.27 14:51 FritzUchiha nani hahahaah
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2021.10.27 14:51 C0ver9ty9 Miss Bo🌈
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2021.10.27 14:51 badmanxl THE RIFTBREAKER (2021) - PC Ultra Widescreen 5120x1440 ratio 32:9 (Samsung CRG9 / Odyssey G9)
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2021.10.27 14:51 Skylito14 Make money from your device in the form of Amazon Gift Cards! - EarnApp
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2021.10.27 14:51 post-news VIDEO: Woman cuts rope holding painters on a condo building in Thailand
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2021.10.27 14:51 typeof_nan my sky people need me … brrr
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2021.10.27 14:51 coolgates3 Yo mods stop removing my fucking post im not underage
2021.10.27 14:51 diemanhard Joe Kay - 4 hr boat cruise set
2021.10.27 14:51 swagNextTuber Alec Baldwin’s gun fired live lead projectile in Rust shooting, sheriff says
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2021.10.27 14:51 bedtimefox My favorite DragonBall Z character...MAJIN VEGETA!
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2021.10.27 14:51 Forsaken-Regret-6608 Which is better(Part 2)
2021.10.27 14:51 jackolanern We need to recruit more people. Everyone should join, share, upvote, etc! This is the way 💪🏼
2021.10.27 14:51 emir1607 Füze atmış amk hort zort
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2021.10.27 14:51 joeco316 WDIS? PPR
2021.10.27 14:51 BriBumer Cointracking for overview and tax reports
cointracking is maybe the best tool to get the overview of your cryptocurrency bag..
You can import the transaction over (API, CSV and so on). Its possible to import wallets from blockchains and exchanges.
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2021.10.27 14:51 VolcanicBear [meta] Please can rule 3 start being enforced?
Or at least include the definition of the word "pun" in the rules?
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